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Many bloggers have blogged about their experience with publishing for ‘x’ consecutive days.

There are multitudes of reasons they have chosen to engage in that feat. For example, for some it was to potentially increase creativity and for others it was to conclude a unique finding of some sort.

My reason for 365 days of writing is because it came as a group challenge. I also know that consistency, discipline and perseverance are good things.

Sometimes I care about writing and sometimes I don’t.

Like today, I don’t feel like showing up here but I’m doing it anyway. Not because some ‘guru’ said so, but because I committed to myself that I would do this challenge…for not much other real reason than to finish what I started.

But, that reason in itself is a big enough deal that I’m choosing to show up every day, even though 90% of the time I don’t feel like it and would rather be doing other things.

Publishing everyday is a test.

It’s hard, it’s boring, it’s mundane, it’s frustrating, it’s time-consuming and it’s largely unrewarding. I never know what I’m going to write about until 5 minutes before or even until I sit down at my computer.

Although I excelled in university English classes getting A+ across the board, I had to quit in 3rd year due to- again, another surgery.

I know…excuses excuses but I finally resolved that a formal degree was not in my future. It took me a really long time to finally accept the sobering idea that I probably would never hold a scroll in my hand or walk that revered stage.

Once I accepted that reality, I became free.

I’ve been told my a few close friends that I should write a book…on what? I’m not sure.

I’m not the best writer and don’t claim to be and as laboursome and frustrating as it can sometimes be, I get that creative sense of release when I sit down to type.

Playing music has never been a great skill of mine and I’m terrible with the paint brush. Writing is my creative outlet.

So, a huge thank you to everyone for taking the time to read my mumble-jumble, for the feedback, the grammatical corrections (because I just press ‘publish’ and don’t always bother to revisit my work), the positive encouragement and the criticism…it all matters and I’m grateful for every bit.

You who support me…and even those who don’t…

I am grateful that you help refine me, lift me up, help me grow and help me acknowledge the words and ideas that do matter and helps me let go of those that don’t.

Until tomorrow…

-Becky

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